So far, so adequate

Today is my son's birthday.  He wanted lasagna and chocolate cake.  All home made.

The good news- I can control what goes into it.

The bad news- what goes in, is genuinely not great.

I knew I would go over on my points today.  That's what the extra points are for, after all. 

I will say, I did a decent job planning for it.  I took today off in order to be Super Mom.  I really wanted a Starbucks coffe.  I started to go down the path of "Well, I'm going to blow it tonight anyhow, so why not?"

Well, the big why not is because I  can't.  It's not negotiable  I may go over on my points, but I'm not blowing them ALL off.  I have 49 extra points to use every week.  It doesn't mean I have to use them all.  And I certainly don't want to go over.

Now some people might think "Well, it's his birthday, live a little."

Listen, every day is a freaking celebration for me.  No joke.

I need to learn how to celebrate the many fun things in my life without making it about the food. 

It may seem obvious or not significant to you, but to me, not completely giving up today was a HUGE deal.

And right now, I'm sitting here and thinking about the cake in the fridge (it was wonderfully delicious, might I add).

I am not going to have another piece.  In fact, the piece that I had was much smaller than I would have normally had.

I'm very proud of myself.

And after tap dancing tonight, it would have been very easy to grab it from the outside fridge to have a piece while I cooled down.

And I didn't.

I had a nice meal.  Within reason.  And I enjoyed it.

I had to think about it.  It wasn't natural.  But it's a step.


Stress eating and joy eating.  Fought them both this week.  I'm really trying to give up the bad habits.


Slowly but surely, I will get there!